Fear is the Mind Killer

 Man my life is becoming worse and worse every day, I think a lot of things to change in my life but I run into the same shit, my momentum direction must be change. Today was a bad day, Sandipan the pshycoist professor of IITM robotics department just doxxed me today, he inquired me like a police officer, I heard no prof doing that but this guy is an hardcore sadist, he want's to ruin people's lives, which is a quality that I don't see in any profs other than him. He is restless unless and feeds on our fear, he thinks he's all proper, regular, elite professional guy, but the truth is - he's just a middle aged piece of shit who couldn't do any solid research to become popular and elite as he think he is, that kills him. The truth is he's a Narcissist. I try to keep myself calm and try to pull myself together in a situation where someone is behind my back who tries to pull me deep down into the underworld, but not knowing when. I herby myself try to take example from the great movie trailer Dune. The famous quote - "Pain is the Mind Killer", "Beyond Pain Destiny Awaits". I have lots of workload from different courses that I do, still this guy comes from the last sem and tries to haunt me. I realized that no matter what pain is constant in a life, so I need to learn to accommodate that with my daily life. He gives me a war zone situation where you never know when your enemies will get you, but you try to focus on what you are doing no matter what, you just keep pushing and train hard no matter what. Shit will happen, don't worry, we can get through this.

Thank You

Dear Diary